What Is Love? |
Everyday I see couples together, happy, enjoying themselves. I look at them and smile. I try to imagine all the things it took for them to fall into that place. The place called love. How do I get there? How many times do I have to be hurt until I can be happy like these people? How much do I have to sacrifice to fall in love? Is it even worth it? How do I love someone? How do I know if I am in love? Is love just having a good time with someone close to you, or is love more than that? What is love? |
Chapter 16: Secrets
Trey
I woke up with Kelly looking up at me and smiling. I smiled and kissed her. “What you doing today baby?” I asked her.
“Bey wants to meet for coffee so imma see her. What are you doing?”
“I don’t know, I might go to the studio and record some new shit for the album. I gotta leave real soon but.”
“Good luck with that, I’ll bring you food.”
“Thank you baby, I love you.”
“I love you too.”
I got up, showered and dressed. I drove to the studio and I saw an unusual car there.
“The fuck? This place was meant to be private today.” I talked to myself.
I opened the double doors to the studio.
“Hey Mr. Neverson,” The young assistant smiled at me. “He’s waiting for you in studio A.”
“Thank you Miss.” I smiled as I opened the double doors to Studio A.
“What’s up man?” My producer slapped hands with me.
“So what we got for today?” I asked.
“Well I wrote some new shit for you, test it out and see if you like it.” My songwriter placed two different songs in my hand.
“Sound good, let’s see what we can do.”
Kelly
Treys forgot to take his phone with him so I decided to bring it to him before I met Bey for coffee. It kept going off, so I unlocked it and read the messages.
Unknown number: Hey baby I been missing you, how bout you come over tonight and give me some of that good shit you got ;) Helen xx
I was mad furious. What the fuck was going on? Helen as in his ex Helen? Was Trey already cheating on me with that bitch? My temperature reached boiling point and I sped to his studio. I pushed the doors open.
“Hey Miss Rowland sorry but Treys bus-“
“I don’t give a fuck where the fuck is he!” I yelled in her face. She could see I wasn’t happy and answered straight away.
“Studio A on the left.”
I walked into the studio while Trey was in the middle of recording. A smile spread across his face as he saw me, then changed as he saw my facial expression. He took the headphones off and walked out of the recording studio towards me.
“Trey what are you doing? You had that.” His producer said to him.
“Hold on a minute,” He walked over to me. “What’s up baby? Why you so mad for? I ain’t done shit.”
“You left your phone so me being the good woman I am decides to bring it to you before I go out. And what do I see? Some bitch texting you about how she been missing you and saying she wants that dick. Not just some bitch, but fucking Helen.”
“What the fuck?”
“Aight we’ll leave you two to sort this shit out.” Treys manager, producer and song writer walked out of the studio.
“Cut the bullshit Trey don’t act like a dumb ass, have you been fucking around with her when you with me? And be fucking honest!”
“Kelendria, calm down.”
“Don’t you fucking tell me to calm down, fucking answer my question! Have you been fucking around with her?”
I threw Treys phone into the wall.
“No I haven’t Kelendria, you know how I feel about you and I meant every fucking thing I said to you. Why would I fuck around on you? You’re everything to me and tell me why would I fucking waste everything we got for some hoe that I finished shit with long ago? I fucking love you Kelendria Trene Rowland and don’t ever think I don’t.”
I took a deep breath as tears built up in my eyes and threatened to fall.
“Baby,” Trey wiped away a tear from my right eye. “I love you, do you not believe me when I say that? And when I say I don’t want shit from another woman, you’re all I need?”
“Sometimes.”
I looked into his eyes.
“How can I make you believe it?”
“I don’t know, I better go.”
I walked out of the studio and Trey grabbed my hand.
“I’ll make you believe it, I promise baby.” He kissed my hand before I snatched it away and walked out fast.
I started crying as I got to my car. I didn’t want to believe him, but something told me he was right about everything. I looked down at the ring on my finger as my mind flashed back to last night.
“Kelendria Trene Rowland, will you accept my promise ring and promise to forgive me after every mistake, after every fight, and stay with me and love me?”
I smiled as the tears rolled down my face. And that’s when I saw him running to my car. I jumped out and ran to him, he grabbed me and held me tight.
“Remember what you promised when you accepted my ring?”
“I remember everything, I forgive you baby.”
“Good girl, I love you baby.”
“I love you too, now get your ass back in that studio before you get in trouble.”
“Fuck them, fuck everyone. As long as I got you that’s all I need.”
Helen
“Ugh fuck this shit. We’re going.” I yelled at Roy.
“He trying to steal my baby girl, imma kill that dumb ass motherfucker.”
“Aye Roy I got an idea. Kelly is about to leave to see Beyonce for coffee right?”
“Right.”
“So you meet them there. Act like you didn’t know they were going to be there, talk to her, get her number and shit will go smoothly from there.”
“Okay, but where’s she going for coffee?”
“I don’t know, let’s follow her.”
I started up the car and waited for Kelly to leave. She finally left and we followed behind her. She stopped out the front of Starbucks and walked over to Bey.
“Okay get out now, I’ll park and wait for you.”
“Aight.”
I watched him from the car as an evil grin spread across my face.
“Goodbye Trelly..”
Roy
I walked into Starbucks and went to the counter to place my order.
“Kelly, is that you?” I asked as I walked past her and Beys table.
“Oh my gosh Roy hey! How you been?”
“Pretty good, you looking real good. Hey Bey.” I smiled at them.
“Thanks Roy, you not looking too bad yourself.”
“Hey Roy, why don’t you come sit with us? Just like old friends catching up cause that’s what we are. Right?”
“Right, but are y’all ladies alright with that?”
“Yeah why wouldn’t we be?” Kelly smiled.
“Aight.”
I took a seat next to Kelly.
“So Roy what’s been going on with you? You got a new woman yet?” Kelly asked me.
“I just been relaxing, no new woman. What about you Kel? You gotta new man?”
A huge smile spread across her face.
“Yeah I do,”
“He’s a real lucky man, I hope he treats you like the Queen you really are, something I was incapable of doing back in the days.” I looked down, sad as memories of me and Kelly in the past came in my head.
“Hey Roy, don’t be sad.” She grabbed my wrist with her left hand. I looked down at the ring in her finger and back into her eyes, confused.
“Already Kel?”
“It’s a promise ring Roy.”
“He is one lucky man. I’m sorry for what I did to you in the past. Imma go now and leave you two ladies.”
“You sure Roy?”
“Yeah I got other shit to do. But have a good time ladies. Thank you for having me with you.”
“Wait Roy,” Kelly grabbed my arm. “I’d like to stay in contact with you if that’s alright.”
A smile spread across my face.
“Here, put your number in my phone. I’ll text you later.”
I gave the phone to Kelly and she put the number in. Perfect.
“It was nice seeing you again Roy.”
“It was nice seeing you too, you too Bey. You both look great.”
“Thank you, bye Roy.” Beyonce smiled.
I walked off with an evil grin on my face.
“Perfect, time to get my girl back..”
Beyonce
“What the fuck was that Kelly?” I yelled at Kel.
“I was just being nice, ain’t like imma cheat on my man for him.”
“Mm you better watch yourself girl, not sure if I like him or not. Remember he did break your heart.”
“I know Bey, but I promise I ain’t going back to him. Ever. Don’t even think for a second I would leave my man, who is perfect, for my ex who fucked me around. Plus Trey knows how to put it down on me right.”
“Oh girl you never told me what’s the sex like?” I sipped my coffee and looked at Kelly.
“Really Bey, really?”
“Yes really, you better tell me. I will find out.”
“Oh and what you think you going to do huh?”
“I’ll get Jays private investigators on your ass.”
“Okay shit, I’m only telling you cause they are so gotdamn scary. It’s amazing. He knows how to hit it right, and he’s real freaky.”
“Is he big or average? Always imagined what fucking him would be like.”
“I ain’t telling you that shit about my man, and keep wondering cause you ain’t ever finna find out.” She laughed.
“I know I know, I swear you got a lock on him. Cause he hardly goes out no more I hear. Spends all his time with you and you spend all your time with him so shit he must got some good dick game, or tongue.” I laughed.
“Shut up bitch.”
“What? You know it’s true.”
“True, but I ain’t telling you no more you heard enough.”
I laughed.
“So what’s shit been like with Jayonce? Good or Jay doing some other suspicious shit?”
“Nah Jays been good, real fucking good. It’s me.”
Her face dropped as she looked into my eyes.
“Beyonce Giselle Knowles-Carter, what have you been doing behind your mans back?”
“I.. I’m a horrible person Kelly. I don’t even know how to explain it. Come on let’s get out of here.”
“No you’re going to tell me.”
“I promise I will, just not here. Look, I’ll meet you back at yours so we can talk.”
“Okay Bey, you better. Bring my niece over too. We can have a girls night. I’ll cancel with Trey.”
“You sure Kel?”
“Yes even though I love Trey, I need to fit my Bey and Blue in somewhere.”
“Okay yay! I’ll bring movies, popcorn, ice cream and all that shit.”
“Aight sounds good.”
We left Starbucks and I picked Blue up from home. I grabbed some movies and junk food on the way to Kelly’s. We got to Kels and I took Blue inside.
“Hello my niece, I missed you beautiful. Look I brought you a present.”
Blue smiled and laughed as Kelly took her and gave her a present. She opened the box and there was a beautiful gold bangle with Blue Ivy Carter I graves on the front and love from your favorite Aunty Kelendria engraved on it.
“Aw Kel it’s beautiful!”
“I know when I saw it I was like I have to get this for my niece! Ah I can’t even walk past baby shops without wanting to buy something for her.”
I laughed. Blue kissed Kelly’s cheek.
“So Bey what’s going on with you?” She asked as she put on the first movie.
“Ah Kel I don’t even know. I love Jay so much and all, but he ain’t been around a lot. And you know who’s always around at my place. I feel guilty as fuck but I fucked him once when Jay was away.”
“Beyonce, no. Not who I think it is is it?”
“Probably, Kel I love Jay so much. He’s so good to me and I done him wrong.” I burst out into tears.
“Bey it’s okay, everyone makes mistakes.”
“But why Kelly why? Why did I fuck his best friend. It wasn’t even worth it. Kanye wasn’t worth it and he’s definitely not worth loosing Jay over. And Kim. Poor girl. Ugh I’m such a fuck up.”
“Bey calm down, yes it was wrong but you gotta tell Jay before he finds out another way. Cause he will find out.”
“Kelly how do I tell Jay I cheated on him and fucked his best friend?”
(Source: whatislove-fanfic)